Happy New Year! I find myself traveling overseas for the next few days and I think I will have time to write on the blog about my thoughts on sex. The topic that has been on my mind for the last few years is why is it that I was so sexually driven for so long. I’ve been diagnosed by a psychologist (an expensive I might add) as an sex addict but at the same time I feel like I am just horny like any other man. The difference is that I was able to figure out ways to have a lot of sex with a lot of women. So I think this is something to think about as there should be a balance somewhere in between. On one hand, what man would not screw around with as many women as possible and on the other how did I get to have more sex partners than 99.9% of men? (rough estimate but I think it’s safe to say that less than 1 out of 1000 men have had as many partners as I have. My psychologist told me he had never encountered anyone like me, so that’s safe to say).
Going back in time to my childhood, I remember always being fascinated by girls. And what buy isn’t really? but some time in my early teens I started to get these ideas of being with lots of girls. I started counting the girls I had kissed and from there it just grew. In my mind it almost seemed as if the more girls I would be with, the more pleasure I would get. So at around 15-16 I came up with a realistic goal of kissing 100 girls. Innocent idea and typical of an male adolescent. But where I started to deviate from the norm is probably my visits to prostitutes at that age. I had the means, the car, the money and the time to do it. So I was ahead of my peers in the hooker count. But I am pretty sure some of the guys I knew would be up there with me if I had the chance. So still, nothing particularly off.
Then came adulthood. I would still do hookers just for the thrill of it more than anything else but I also started to have regular sex partners and girlfriends. I really enjoyed sex and one of my girlfriends even told me I was going to end up doing porn. How she was able to figure that out, I have no idea but there must have been something about me that she saw that gave her that impression. Then after my mid 20’s, I discovered swinging and that was really the beginning of my accumulation of partners. I started to have sex with a lot of women at swing parties and because these were as NSA encounters as they can get. I probably did about 200-300 women that way. That lifestyle led to my involvement in porn and then I went from swinging to having sex on video and getting paid for it 2-3 times a week with different women. And before I knew it, I accumulated about 1000 sexual partners because of the time I was involved in porn and swinging. But even after quitting porn and swinging, I still manage to rack up very high numbers by any standards. Somehow, I figured out a way to do this every efficiently online and last year I ended up doing about 50 women just doing what I do best.
So the question I ask myself is, am I a sex addict for being able to figure out how to have sex with lots of women? I am able to find new partners every week if I wanted to just by posting and responding to some sex ads. For me, it is THAT easy. Men pay a fortune for that, ruin their marriages and relationships just to have casual sex. And I am in the position where I can do it without hurting anyone. Does that make me a real sex addict? I think I am just horny and clever enough to figure women out. I suppose I will answer this question in time when I put myself thru some kind of character tests. In the meantime, I know I can have sex with at least 50 different women this new year if I choose to. That’s 50 new experiences, lots of thrills, lots of women. And the alternative would be to be with 1 woman working on a romantic connection/relationship. So I guess the question is what do I want more.. Sex or Love. Time will tell.